As soon as the sun finally came out and summer arrived at last in the North, August ended and Fall is here already. This Summer was not my most fun or enjoyable, but it was productive.
After a few things led to a few other things, especially last semester, I decided that maybe I could be doing better. I have a lot of things that I struggle with, mostly a result of a life left far behind me. I guess that I had done my best to outrun them, but as it happens, they are not as far behind me as I thought. I always figure that if I can hold a job, get good grades and clothe, wash and feed myself, how bad can things be? However, there is more to wellness than I thought, so I have started trauma therapy. I have been seeing my therapist all summer, but because she specializes in trauma she is aware that I have a limited store of trust, we are still just getting to know each other. She is also aware of my experiences with the system and Big Medicine that have made me reluctant to share any kind of struggle or vulnerability with professionals. It is a lot better than I thought it would be, I feel respected and empowered by the fact that this time I am an adult who is (mostly) in control of her life and not a vagrant ward with no rights or choices. Monica has been more support than I could ever have asked for, so I bought her a mouse!
We named him Hunka Munka, after the mouse in Beatrix Potter's "The Tale of Two Bad Mice", one of my favorites. In case you were wondering, that brings the pet total up to three dogs, one guinea pig, one mouse and two fish.
It's a dyke thing.
We did get to have some good adventures in the nice weather; trips to the lake, backyard hangouts and good long walks/hikes. Plus, Monica has started roller derby!!!
Right now she is attending the Fresh Meat training sessions and she absolutely loves it. I am totally pumped and can't wait to go to her games one day! I'm going to get a T-Shirt that says "derby widow". She has yet to pick a name, but I am suggesting the nickname my sister gave her - "Demonica".
School is right around the corner, and I am only taking two courses this semester: Biology and Statistics.
Yay.
I left my breadth requirements until last, of course. I'm anxious about them, but everything else that has been going on has been sort of distracting, and has also given me some much-needed perspective. I can't promise that once classes start I won't be my usual A-type self but at least I am working on it.
This is Monica's (and most of North America's) Summer jam....
